Ok...so my grandma has been super sick and on the verge of dying for the past 18 months. Well, last Tuesday she finally passes away. The worst part for me was the fact that I wasn't there to say good-bye. I was even going to call Tuesday morning just to tell her I love her, but I didn't, which just made me feel even worse. Oh, and now my grandfather is in the hospital in total renal failure, and severe pneumonia. Sure, he *could* go on dialysis, but that would only be if he would consent to it (funny!) and then we'd have to attempt to find a doctor who would be willing to put him through dialysis in his condition. Now they're (the hospital, his doctor, etc.) is going to see if they can have someone aspirate his lungs so he can breathe easier. This means my family and I will soon be heading back to New York for another funeral. Personally, I don't know if I can deal with that right now. I mean, it was hard enough to go to my grandmother's wake and all, but then soon after have to go through her husband's!? Not to mention the fact that this is the first time I've ever lost anyone (to death) that I was close to. And God only knows ho my aunts and uncles will be able to deal with it! I'm, just so run down and exhausted. I just graduated high school! I should be happy, not depressed! argh.... So yeah, that's my life right now. Sounds like fun, huh?